Today wasn't a bad day... but a lot of stuff i've been thinking about:
I'm so glad that i finally have friends that understand me and that i love to death, and now that im becoming more "social" and doing more stuff with people, it seems that i have more choices to make and its frustrating. I love hanging out with my friends, its the best time i have, but then I feel like im neglecting my family, like my grandmothers and especially the Hendry's, even though right now I'm still kind mad at Deborah and Bill ( which i wont be as soon as i sit down and talk with them),it still makes me feel like crap. I mean if Deborah and Bill come up to me now and told me that i was "isolating" myself, i would understand, but in the other hand, I really enjoy time with my friends and i want to continue having time with my friends, so between working on weekends and spending time with my friends and still trying to fit in time with my family, is going to become hard for me as i get less mad at deborah and bill, and as i was thinking, the best thing they did for me was 2 weekends ago when they took me home, and yes i was mad and all, but it tought me to lean on my friends more and realize that they are here for me and I have more than just family to be there for me, and i dunno, i feel lost on where to go next and how to make everyone happy, becuase i dont want to hurt the people i care about, but i also understand that if i don't make myself happy, how are people going to be happy for me? i don't know, it was just something that i've been thinking about all day today.
The banquet was really good, only cried a little bit, and it was because Moshier started crying! lol.. i'm really going to miss the seniors next year, i've gotten to know these girls so much better than i ever thought i would! They have taught me more about life, not just soccer, than i ever would have imagined!
All the girls are staying the night at Nikki's house on friday, all 22 of us, should be fun =). I havent decided if im going to work on Saturday, i need to money really bad, im gunna see if danielle,katelyn or Justin is going to ref saturday. If i dont ref, i may go over to the Hendry's and see granny and grandma and sort out everything. Then Sunday is mother's day, i have no idea what to get my mom yet, im going tomorrow and getting it.
I have so much homeowkr so im gunna go and ill update tomorrow. COMMENT
x.O Kayla x.O